How will I know when the time has come to cross the street?
How will I know when it’s time to give up the old patterns?
How will I know when I’ve made it to my Destiny Destination?
How will I know that I know? Ya know?
How will I know when to laugh and when to be quiet?
How will I know when to say “Enough’s enough!”?
How will I know when I’m really being an Angel?
How will I know when I, to-my-core, am free of all the hater voices that tell me I’m doing all the wrong things?
How will I know when it’s over and I don’t have to worry anymore and just chill and bask in my awesomeness?
How will I know when I believe in Me more than I believe in anyone else?
That’s not selfish, that’s Power.
To reach a state where I KNOW I’m my #1 fan and love the shit outta myself and everything I’m doing.
How will I know?
How will I know when to Raise my hand and say to the Universe and those around me “I’m Ready now! I’m ready to be Great! I’m ready to be IT”.
I’ve done the gnarly dark shadow work.
I’ve written out the Voices and given them names and shapes. I’ve shown compassion and bowed to the dark. I’ve GONE THERE.
How many more times do I have to go down the roads of my past to finally be rid of it?
How will I know when the past is really behind me and all is healed? Are we ever fully healed?
Spiritual battle wounds from the past are Badass. Like a Tattoo of the Soul, they mark a Victory over a hurdle that many times can feel so high it’s nearly impossible.
How many more hurdles of the soul must I jump over?
How will I know the race is done and there are no more hurdles to leap over?
How will I know?
How
How
How
Hero
Of
Wonder
The new acronyms for HOW… I must become a Hero Of Wonder in order to stop asking How, because the How no longer exists.
I got forth the Hero Of Wonder, ever in Awe and Wonder of this expansive multilayered existence.
A Hero Of Wonder doesn’t Wonder WHY or HOW all of the questions shall be answered. They don’t overthink. They don’t ask ask ask. They just are in the state of Wonderment… dazzled by the beauty, the lights, the cities, the possibilities, the strength of Love. And once the Journey of the Hero Of Wonder is complete, they receive a golden 4 leaf clover. For they no longer are in the HOW, even though being a Hero of Wonder is a magical powerful state to be in. Once the clover is received, the Hero is done with the hurdles, they can take a deep breath in and out and collapse in a field of roses. Oh how sweet that smell shall be!
Yet hold on, on this most auspicious silly day of Luck, I remember that a Cosmic Catalyst gave me a 4 leaf clover! Alas, it was an adorable light sage green. LOVE it so much, and yet it is not gold.
“Harken not to fret!” a funny voice says to me. “You received the 4 leaf green clover to let you know that you are being the Hero Of Wonder. I’m just giving you this amulet of the Earth to say ‘So you obviously are deep in the HOW part of your journey because there’s only 1 more hurdle before that sweet sweet bed of roses awaits!”
Whaaaat?! Just ONE more?
“Yep.” The jolly companion says.
Who is this Guy? I wonder. I think it’s a cute Lucky Ducky Leprechaun. Ya that’s it.
“One more, one more you got this!!! Spoilers: it’s a Doozy. The doziest of all. Yet it will be so victorious and magnificent with every step, run, leap, stretch and ascension to the peak, and then free falling into completion. You have done the work. You have gone into the muck and mire. You have danced with the devil. You have laughed with God. You have cried with the fairies. You have fought your foes with the great Angel Ninjas. You have Every tool in your inter-dimensional backpack to fly over that hurdle! The finish line is yours for the taking. The golden clover is close, so close. Can you feel it? See it? If you can, then you are so close. Take the wee 4 leaf earth clover and kiss it. That kiss mi lass, is the luck of the Irish! Today. Today. Today. NOW you got the Luck to enjoy your last few moments as the Hero Of Wonder. Relish it. Because you are about to take a leap so great that your whole life will change. Your life is about to be so Radical it shakes the foundation of the skies. Your life is about to be Legendary. You are a Legend. Do you believe it now?”
Now more than Ever I’m ready to stop asking HOW, I’m ready to end my journey of the Hero Of Wonder. I’m ready to fly over the last hurdle.
Look Out Universe of Roses and Golden Clovers, Here I Come!